It's Peach again!

This really hurts to say, but Lula has passed away... I don't know why. Maybe she was older than I thought, maybe I didn't take good care of her, maybe she ate something she shouldn't have, I have no idea. All I know is that I loved her so much, and it really hurts for her to be gone, I miss her so much. I feel like half of me is missing. 
So I wrote a letter to her:

Dear Lula,
I know that we didn't know each other for that long, but it feels like I have known you my whole life. I will never forget all the fun times we had playing, cuddling, hanging out, talking, etc. You were so beautiful, I swear you were the cutest hamster in the world! People even told me they have never seen such a cute hamster.
The first time I saw you, I knew you were the one. The lightning bolt down your face, brown patches, and super soft fur. 
I miss holding you, and petting your warm and soft fur. I miss watching you play in your ball, sleep, eat, play... 
I never had a friend as close as you, I could always turn to you when I was feeling down and needed someone to talk to. You always made me smile, and I thought about you all the time. You made me so happy.
You were family to me, and I am going to miss you terribly. 
These past few hours crying have made me realize how much of a wonderful hammy you were, and how much I am going to miss you. I will never forget you, and I really hope I am not the reason for your death. You will forever be in my heart, I love you soooo much! 
Love mommy

Its indescribable how much it hurts, and I wish I had known her for longer. 
My mom keeps telling me she will get me a new baby hamster, but I am too scared. No one will ever replace Lula. But what if this hamster dies too? What if I don't take good enough care of them? 
I feel like a terrible owner right now, and I hope sooo much that I am not the reason for Lulas death. 

I love you with all my heart, and miss you terribly Lula <3 R.I.P xoxo